“We cannot learn without
pain.” Aristotle
Imagine
a life without pain. At first thought it
sounds like a wonderful gift that I would love to receive. But consider Gabby Gingras. At a few days old Gabby slept through the
prick of a blood test. And in the
mornings, she would be in her crib, but freezing cold to the touch. What her parents later discovered was that
Gabby didn’t flinch at the pain of a needle or respond to being so cold because
she couldn’t feel it. Gabby suffers from
an extremely rare disorder called congenital insensitivity to pain. For unknown reasons, the connection between
the nerves that sense pain and the brain’s recognition of pain is missing. When Gabby started cutting teeth she would
bite down through the skin and would have bit to the bone had her mother not
intervened. Gabby’s parents made the
decision to have her teeth pulled because she was mutilating her fingers. Learning to walk made Gabby more
vulnerable. At age 2, Gabby broke her
jaw and didn’t know it until infection caused a fever. Her eyes were especially at risk. As an infant and toddler she would put her
fingers in her eyes and feel no discomfort.
Her desperate parents tried restraints then goggles. But by the time Gabby was 4, she needed to
have her left eye removed. Her right eye
was also damaged, and she wears a lens over it to help her see better. The Gingras family knows that Gabby’s
challenges will last a lifetime. “Pain
teaches,” said her mother, Trish Gingras.
“Pain protects. Pain can save you
from a lot of bad things in life.” (The Girl Who Can’t Feel Pain, abcnews.go.com)
Several
years ago I was embarking on a season of life that would prove to be the most
painful section of my personal journey thus far. It was not a season of physical pain. The painful journey I was on brought deep and
intense emotional and spiritual pain. Over
the course of this part of my life I desperately wanted everything in my life
to be “normal” again. I often felt
lonely, discouraged and depressed.
I was in a pit of despair and I frequently cried out to God to get me through another day.
I was in a pit of despair and I frequently cried out to God to get me through another day.
I
am incredibly thankful and humbled to report that God delivered me out of that
pit. While I can say it was by my own
doing that put me in the pit, I must clearly state it was the hand of God that
pulled me out. Those years of struggle
have had a profound impact on who I am today.
The crucible of pain shaped and formed my current understanding of God’s
mercy, forgiveness, restoration and love.
While I dare say that my relationship with God has grown deeper and
richer as a result, I would not desire to go through such pain again. How I wish I could learn such lessons about
God and grow dramatically in character in a more comfortable and pain free
environment!
During
those years of struggle God blessed me for a short time with a relationship
with a man who was as close to a mentor as I’ve ever had. Terry knew pain and struggle in his own life
as well and spoke from experience. In
the midst of my dark journey Terry would often remind me, “In God’s economy
nothing is wasted.” I came to understand
that pain, when given to God, can be used to forge something beautiful.
In
a season of gift giving I am reminded that pain is really a gift no one wants,
but one we really can’t do without.
~ Kevin Baker
~ Kevin Baker